I'm tired of cooking/preparing 3 meals a day. It's just the two of us but boy oh boy can that woman eat!! She stays slimish, I get fattish. It's bad enough I do everything here much less start making her one thing and me the other. At times I feel guilty when I buy her fast food cuz of the nutritional value....not to mention I eat it too.
I didn't even get all that upset when Mom left poo all over the toilet seat and a puddle of urine on the floor by her bed for me to find when I got up. And even now (1/2-way through my first BPC of the morning), while she sits in her chair, telling me "I'll shower in a little bit", I'm not really all that annoyed - it would have driven me crazy before.
Mom has been extremely restless the last few days, but cheerful and more talkative than in the past two years. @ 96, I know she's had a good long life, and has been well cared for without ever having to worry about having a home, food, clothing, healthcare, etc., etc. She is loved, she is a woman of great faith and has never, ever done anything to deserve my angst. I know I'm just tired, so many years without a break has just taken it's toll. She will be placed when she's no longer ambulatory even though I really don't want to do that but it will have to be done, it's not what I wanted for her but I guess I'm not really in charge of how things turn out.
Thank you all again for listening to my whine. I'm sure I'll be back again before this is over with.
BPC is Bullet Proof Coffee. It's coffee w/added fat (I know, some people will say GROSS! I did at first.). Your brain is made up of mostly water...and fat. It *needs* fat to function properly. If you deprive yourself of fat, you feel foggy-headed. This stuff is like lighting a rocket under your butt. A word of caution - you can't drink BPC and eat a junk-food diet. You have to change your lifestyle if you want this stuff to work as it's supposed to. It works best with a low-carb way of eating. I started back to low-carbing on Monday and I'm already down 2 lbs and feel fantastic. I don't tolerate carbs well - they make me sluggish and I feel like crap all the time. Body aches, irritable, frequent headaches, tummy troubles, etc. If I stay away from carbs (except "good" carbs - non-starchy veggies, meat, eggs, etc), then I feel more alert, clear-headed, and aware - and all those aforementioned problems go away.
You brought up food for thought when parents rent a home. Time for everyone to read Mom and Dad's lease to see what does the lease state regarding a Tenant vacating the property prior to the end of the term of the lease.
Or is there a clause as to what happens to the lease if the Tenant is unable to stay due to unforeseen circumstances, does the Lease automatically expires or does the lease remain in effect until the end of the lease term?
Does the lease say the Landlord can use the security check as the last month's rent, or part thereof? Does the lease say how long the Landlord can hold onto the security deposit before returning it, and can the Landlord use said deposit to remove personal items from the home that were left behind? Or can the Landlord use the security deposit as a fee for early termination by the tenant?
I'm getting pretty tired of everything being "us" or "we" or "ours". And Mom makes sure I know it. If I offer on the phone to treat my sister to breakfast when we go out on Sunday mornings, I say, "It will be my treat" - Mom chimes in and says, "It will be OUR treat!" - emphasis on "our", as in - "WE will pay for it". Um...Mom....guess who's been paying for both your and my breakfast for the past year and a half since I moved in? ME. Not "we". I know she may not realize the extent of everything I pay for in her stead, because she doesn't have the money for it since Dad died, but that's kind of frustrating.
Thank God for my BPC (bullet proof coffee). It has made a huge difference in how I feel and my thinking is clearer. Can't do without it now. Even my emotions are more mellow - if I get irritated with Mom about something (which has happened twice this morning), it's short-lived and doesn't drag on for hours like it used to. I used to get irritated and stay that way for the rest of the day, which is exhausting. Now, I get irritated, and it's over in minutes. I go back to feeling good and even-keeled. Only thing that has changed is I started drinking BPC in the mornings as part of my low-carb lifestyle change. Do I sound like an ad for BPC? Yep, I guess so, but I don't care. I love the stuff.