Many of us, myself included, come from a dysfunctional family which adds a lot of weight to the challenges of caregiving. I have read stores on various threads on other topics and decided it would be good to have a thread just for this topic for people to share, vent and discuss.
The idea for this thread originated on the thread named "The Caregiver....How are YOU doing today?"
Please do not feel bad for saying it is a relief. I find this to be completely normal.
It's hard on family members, no less the key people that are caregiving, to remain in the dark about as in your case what it is your mother is suffering from.
You need to know this information in order to do something for her, or for as I know this arrangement she has in place with her attorney. Why would you want to suggest any guilt to yourself for something like this. I'm going to say it, "You're kind of beating yourself up." You're strong, and emotionally sound quite mature, so give yourself some credit, my dear!
It is painful to ask our family, or friends about these matters while they're in the middle of it. My neighbor told me the other day that she has to take care of some kind of Melanoma in the future that she has on her skin around her throat area.
She's had cancer issues elsewhere. So when she divulged this to me, I held back from asking where this cancer was. It's like, you just don't want to ask too much, of course this is being sensitive to people's barometers about talking about it. But then she went on to tell me where it was, etc.
My brother also, just received notice that he no longer has his job after March 30th. He's been a rep for one of the most popular beverage companies in the U.S. for 29 yrs. We really feel for him. So I've been really sending out good energies, that he doesn't get stuck on account of this setback. This circumstance must be very difficult also for your brother and SIL.
Oh, what is up with your manager?? I hope that someone with more authority than she told her a thing or two. She really doesn't sound very bright telling you that she wanted to force you to come in, etc. What kind of remark is that, from a so called manager?? You'd think HR would look into this matter at some point.
O.K., I hope I haven't said too much, but she's getting on my nerves.
You and yours are in my thoughts, Much Love & Light! Margeaux
i finally plucked up the courage / reached the end of my tether / snapped, and told them i was done with this and leaving, which shocked them all senseless. why would i leave? whats wrong? i said something had to give, and barring a miracle, i was done.
then my father in law fell in the bath, and needed the endless trips to the doctor, and then bedrest and me to nurse him and care for him. last night incontinence hit in a big way ... you know what i mean, so we are now into nappies, hopefully not permanent, but still someone (me) has to wash the sheets, the pj's, help him clean himself, the floor, the loo, etc
so if course i am still here. not quite the miracle i was hoping for, but something inside of him recognises that the only person around to care for him is me, and he is becoming compliant (ish). this past week, i have echoed the tone the german doctors and nurses use with their patients ... absolute authority, no questions or suggestions, just orders and facts ... and he is doing what i say, when i say it.
the doctor told him to listen to me as i know what i am doing, and since then he is behaving. long may this last!
so i am nursing my 89 stubborn, mean old man, incontinence rules the day (both sides) but strangely enough, in control, as hubby and fil have no clue in this situation.
My husband took my mom's ladder to our house. Mom has been having a fit since we took it. She has been calling 3-4 times a day, not just me, she has been calling my sister and my brother daily. My brother called me today asking about the "great American ladder mystery", Lol!! I told him why I took it, he said he figured as much but had told mom he would call me to find out. We talked for a long time, he didn't mention his step son and I didn't want to ask because I know it is painful for all of them. He and my sil are handing in their retirement papers on Monday because they work for the government, the government has issued furloughs for thousands of employees to save money. He said he and sil will have to take a 22 week furlough without pay and they don't see it as beneficial since they planned to retire at the end of this year. My brother and sil went to night school for years to get their degrees in business. Both are in upper management. I told him what happened at work last week, switching days off with a co-worker and my boss wanting me to come in on Thursday which I had a dr. appt. at 2 pm that day. Then she called telling me Friday, I still had to come in to work what was scheduled even though I had switched with a co-worker and when I came in Friday, everyone said they did not need me and I got a manager to approve that I go home. My brother said my boss probably got he a$$ chewed out for calling me in when the person I switched with was already there. He said they have to pay me for 2 hours even though I was only on the clock for 3 minutes. He said that is probably why she gave you a big hug when you came in Saturday. I am not going to feel bad if she got talked to because she pretty much admitted she called me forcing me to come in because she was mad that I didn't come in on Thursday. I told him I always schedule my appts. for my days off, he said he used to do that too, but they would call him to come in on days off so he started scheduling appts. and filling out a request off slip with the appt. card attached. I may start doing that too. I have been off since Wednesday and not a word from work to come in. I go back tomorrow. Maybe if my boss was talked to about last Friday, she may get off my back now. I may have exercised my rights without knowing it and she doesn't know that but may have learned that I will not let her get away with playing me, LOL!! We shall see what happens next week on my days off. If she ends up transferring me as a result, I don't care. The situation with my mom has not interfered with work. Yes I did lose her medicine that one night during the first week of January and I did take one day off back in October when my mom cancelled her phone service, but my boss was on vaca that week so I don't think she knew about it. Bottom line is...she has nothing on me other than she does not approve of how we as a family are handling things for mom which she can't hold against me work wise...only on a personal basis. Thanks for letting me vent all this, I feel better and think I may have turned a corner at work with my boss.
I was talking with a 28 year old co-worker the other day. She is married and lives in a 4bdrm house with her brother, sil and both parents. Her father is bedridden from a stroke. I asked her if a parent has written instructions in their will how they want things carried out upon their death, would you follow their instructions even if you didn't agree with them. She said it would depend on what is in the instructions. She said for example, her mother wants to be cremated because it is cheaper and she (the daughter) will not have her cremated. There was something else she said she did not agree with and would not follow. I guess I am too old school because I would follow the wishes of my parent upon their death. Any other opinions on this??
Well, at last you finally have the word from the doctor. It is difficult to hear this about a parent. I remember, when we heard the same news about mom.
But now, you can move forward. You and your sister can finally have this attorney onboard, or however the agreement was arranged, so that you can find the best place possible to address your mother's needs. The community that you wrote about that will allow her to keep her dog sounds very good. Oh, pets!!
They are warm and cuddly!!
I will say this about your manager (the one switching up days off), be very careful with her. She's tooooo flip floppy. It could be she is moody, however this kind of stuff should be left at the door, she being in a managerial position. Be mindful, and keep track of the manuevers she's doing to your's and others days off.
You're in my thoughts, Much Love & Light! Margeaux
It looks as if the trip to BC did you well. I can tell from your picture.
Oh, I know about the sinuses! I'm afraid it's hitting me also. Just in time for spring.
I'm really sorry about the communication going on with your daughter, and how it affects the relationship with your grandchildren. I completely understand these dynamics, Emjo. While my sister's daughters were younger, I always felt at somewhat of a loss with my relationships with them. Sad to say, that at the bottom of this is my controlling sister's attitudes about many things and people in her life. Yes, it's better we detach. Besides, one day your grandchildren will be older, and hopefully can separate some of the dysfunction about you and their mother.
Well I hope things are well with your mother. I remember you wrote she hadn't been in touch with you as much. Maybe no news, is good news?
I'm thinking about you Emjo, w/your current situation and your daughter.
Hope all is well with the rest of your family. Much Love & Light! Margeaux
No matter what, when you lose a parent, you have lost their opportunity to say "I'm so proud of you!" over even the smallist accomplishment. No one else remembers the thrill of the first day you walked!!! Forgave you when you were caught smoking...attended your graduations. Parents are always proud of their kids.
Forgive the bad things and remember the little efforts of kindness.
Bless you and your family.
Bonnie
Bonnie
I am truly sorry about the loss of your mother.
You did a very noble thing for her.
You and your mother are in my thoughts.
May her spirit soar very high.
My sincere condolences, Margeaux
Sarah~Learning to set boundaries is key. One thing I did several years ago was I would leave my parents house when I felt the tension rising. Sure enough my sis would call me later saying you were smart leaving when you did. I never could understand why she would not leave too. Instead she would stay and a big verbal fight would start and when she did finally go home, she was so emotionally upset by the incident and another Christmas, Thanksgiving was ruined. Set those boundaries and stick to them, learn about detaching with love. Hugs to you!!
You certainly have entered another phase with your mum, with the diagnosis and statement of incapacity. I know the steps down with a decline are hard, and you have to grieve the losses as you go along, So glad that your sis and you are finding a place that you think will suit your mum. I am sure keeping her dog will be a great comfort to her in this big transition. There is a lot of work ahead before you get her safely settled in, but it is happening. Hope you have a great day!!!
hugs and an Irish blessing to everyone -
"May you alway walk in sunshine.
May you never want for more.
"May Irish angels rest their wings right beside your door.
I am beginning to see a pattern with her. She is moody, says she doesn't hold grudges but yet, will use her authority to get back at you for something. Today she was on cloud nine, very upbeat, joking, telling us about her grandchildren. I am exhausted because I had to work with two rookies to our store who have more seniority than me, but I had to help both of them so they could finish on time. The one girl who has been subbing from another store this week, I had her stay 30 minutes longer than scheduled because I was so far behind with all the customer service and extra work I was doing to help them. Plus I had to leave at 3:45 to go to another sister store (total of 25 minutes) to pick up bakery labels we were out of for the bakery scale. Another plus, my lower left back is hurting because of climbing up and down a chair at mom's yesterday to get the valance on her vertical blinds secured. I would not want to be a manager, I dislike telling co-workers what to do. V, the co-worker I traded days with, has more seniority than I do so she knows the rules to overtime but yet she stayed on overtime, and I told her if you are on overtime, I cannot authorize it, it has to come from a manager. She said, well I am on overtime! I said then you need to go now!!
The neurologist started mom on Namenda. He told her she has Alzheimer's but she didn't understand. Yes it is a relief to get to this point so we can get the legal stuff done and make decisions for mom for her protection and well being, but it still tears me up hearing it. Being a controlling woman, she was always on top of everything. The dr. did not tell mom she was incapacitated, he said we are incapacitated. The problem with Namenda is that I am going to have to give it to her twice a day after the first week. Working that into my schedule so she gets every 12 hours is going to be tough.
Sis and I toured another community today. I really like the two people we talked with, one is the sales rep who gives the tour and the other is the director. It is a really nice community. However, sis and I still like the first place we went to because the rooms are private where this one, mom would have to share with someone. We don't like that because 1) mom is very private, 2) it takes away from the idea that she is independent (even though she isn't). There is one other community here in town we need to tour, but I think we will go with the first because she can have her dog as long as she can take care of it and that will make the transition easier.
Yesterday when hubby and I were putting up head rail to mom's vertical blinds, mom was within sight of me, but I heard her say, "Where's Sharyn?" "She must be at work." I said mom, I'm right here." She said, "Oh, I guess you are." She went off into her own little world at that moment.
Margeaux~I am sending out good vibes that your sister will continue to share with you. I know how hard it is when you care about your mother's well being and want to know what is going on. Hugs to you!!
This last year has been rough and I would not have got through it without all of you helping me. I have been blessed with so many helping me here on this site, and co-workers of my mom. Lots of Love and Hugs to you!!
Sorry about the power trip your boss is on. Does that mean you and the cowirker you switched with will both go in? That does seem unnecessary. I sure understand you being pissed off. However, I expect that is your boss's agenda - to get you pissed off. Be careful to look after your butt when you are in there. She may be setting you up. I am so glad I am retired and don't have to play those games any more.
Margeaux I am glad your sister ?as been sharing more.
book - how's your health?
I am so far behind on here - welcome to the new people.
We had a good trip to BC, but on return the sinus infection flared up again and I am still affected - runny eyes, stuffy nose etc. Trying some meds for the fibromyalgia which may not be helping my sinuses. No news from mother. I think I will contact the ALF director to see if I still am her contact person, or, if not, who is. Had a chat with my daughter today - nothing much is changed there. If I say the weather is bad, she says it isn't, even though we have weather warnings of heavy snow and strong winds blasting the prairies. Oh well.
(((((((hugs))))))) to all Joan
I was off yesterday, had a dr. appt. and got blood work done, picked up the blinds and installed those for mom. Took all afternoon. In the morning, work called wanting me to come in. I said no, I have dr. appt.,ect. I was suppose to be off on Wednesday, but a co-worker wanted to trade so she could have Wednesday off and I would have Friday (today). I just got home and there is a message on my phone from my bakery/deli boss telling me, I know you traded days off with V but you still have to come in and work today as scheduled. I am pissed!!!