Many of us, myself included, come from a dysfunctional family which adds a lot of weight to the challenges of caregiving. I have read stores on various threads on other topics and decided it would be good to have a thread just for this topic for people to share, vent and discuss.
The idea for this thread originated on the thread named "The Caregiver....How are YOU doing today?"
Prayers, love and hugs to all and to all a good night.
Thank you again . Hope things are more reasonable with you and your dad. (((((((hugs))))) Joan
"Will I Ever Be Good Enough?: Healing the Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers" by Karyl McBride. Of course, I know the answer to the question. For my narcissistic mother I will never be good enough, do enough, and so on. But one review mentioned that the book leads you through a healing process and to the point where you may want to cut contact. That is the part I am interested in. IU inow I am getting closer alklk the time. It is not out of anger, but self preservation - love of self, which has to balance love of others. Hope you have a great day. (((((((((hugs))))))) back to you!
Riz~You are not responsible for rehabilitating your brother. Is this the brother that you tried to help once before by letting him live with you and your husband? Please don't feel guilty about not helping. He has choices to make for his life and only he can make the right choice. You and your husband deserve your time together now.
Margeaux~For the life of me I can't understand people who will not acknowledge people when they come in their home. My husband has some family members like that too. I can't help but feel it is because there is strong control issues in his family. Sounds like you are doing the right thing by distancing yourself from their dysfunction.
Joan~Sorry you are not feeling well on top of all that is going with your mother. The rubber room has space available if you need it, Lol!! You have such a healthy attitude and you have distanced yourself quite well from your mother, but it is still difficult to deal with the behaviors of a narcissist even from a distance. If my mother had not developed dementia, my relationship with her would be very distant and limited. Your health is important so continue to focus on that and I hope you are feeling better soon.
Hugs to everyone!!
I have greater resolve with this as it became obvious to me last night that the safe meds I am on are not working anymore - that was the reason I have been so fatigued, had cramps and was sweaty at night. The bug must have mutated. I got up and took one of the pills I was on before, and within hours I started to feel better. Praise God! I have energy again. Woot woot!. I am not happy about the safe meds not being effective anymore, as the one I am back on can be hard on the liver. I have emailed the specialist and asked where do go from here. Prayers would be appreciated for a once, and for all answer to this infection. I do believe getting out from under the stress of mother is part of the answer. When I was reading the emails my first thought was "This makes me sick to my stomach" I guess it does, and I have to protect myself. Thanks for the support. ♥ hugsd and prayers. Joan
sharyn sounds like you have a good plan. Praise God for answered prayers. I so believe in prayer and see results in my life. Things are coming together for this stage for you anyway. I do hope the antidepressant helps. Guess we have to keep praying that she signs all the forms you need her to. Glad you had a good day with your hubby.
margeaux -glad you had a quiet new years - me too and glad you are staying detached.Sounds like those young peopke have no social skills at all, and that will hurt them in life, You are right one size does not fit all women, and sometimes all we want is someone to listen to us, and be supportive. I do think there are a lot of narcissists in your family. My dd can display those type if manners -or lack of too.
book - educating yourself helps so much, I find. We are all learning all the time, and from one another - we all need ME time
austin you are so right -you can't change others, only yourself
Riz - hi -absolutely no way can you be your bro's caregiver. You are NOT mean, just realistic and protective of yourself and your family. Don't let guilt creep in here. You are not running a rehab center and you are not responsible for him. I hope he can get the help he needs- as you say -far away. Stay strong!
alabama - so sorry to hear your mum broke her shoulder, but good that she was in court. It must have been horrible sitting in court, and listening to your sis. Your mum must be considered to be competent. Let us know what finally comes down from the clerk.
Well I wrote a letter to mother stating my concerns and limits if I am to stay as POA, but didn't send it. She is off in another tangent, so I will wait till she demands my involvement there she has already started hinting at it - and, use the last time as an example. Her doctor retired at age 80 - good thing I think, and she will see her new doc tomorrow. I expect she will not get on as well with the new one, but we will see.
Hope everyone is having a good weekend. My new year's resolution is to improve some aspect of my life in 2013 - to have a better year. Dealing better with mother is one of the top items.
♥, hugs and prayers Joan
Today has been a kick back day for hubby and me. He went to Costco to stock up on some staple items and I went to the grocery store to get lasagna pasta and cheese. I made a big pot of Minestrone soup the other day and a big pot of marinara sauce. I over did the veggies for both pots and today added more beef broth to the soup and made up 6 containers to freeze for mom the rest I froze of us. We had spaghetti last night so today with the left over sauce, I am making lasagna and will take that over with the soup to moms later. To answer your question Margeaux, I am doing well considering all that has been going on. I does tear me up emotionally when I think how my mom is all twisted up with so much anxiety and fear. It reminds of when I was so depressed in my 30's and would get so paralyzed with anxiety that I couldn't function. When you add Alz and a personality disorder to the mix it must be horrible for mom. I am feeling good about the situation at this point. Sis told me last night she was literally exhausted for being so patient with mom yesterday. She doesn't have the patience I do with mom so it is a real struggle for her. Sis did say that it was a good afternoon with mom and she was able to joke with her a little. I am so glad sis and I can work together even tho sis can frustrate me with her strict rule following (like mom) with no grey areas to the rules. Next Wednesday is the appt. for mom's dog to get groomed and it is my dad's 86th birthday. After taking the dog to the groomers, we will stop at the cemetery to visit dad. Mom hasn't been out there in quite a while. Enjoy the weekend everyone and hugs to all!!
Today has been a good day with mom. I took her out earlier to get a hair cut, made an appt. for next Wednesday for the dog to get groomed, and I sat with the dog and got her somewhat combed out. Her fur was really matted, especially her ears, and we waited for my sister to get there. I asked my mom if she would do me a favor and sign these forms. I went over them with her explaining what each form was for. My sister stayed out of the kitchen while I was talking with mom about the forms. She said she was confused, didn't know if she should sign them. She looked them over and I had to explain about 4 times what they were for and she finally signed them. No arguments, it took about 15 minutes to get her to sign them but it is done. The power of prayer works wonders and just being patient with her, teasing her and telling her that we all have to sign these kinds of forms, I know they are a pain in the A$$,etc. My sister is with her now for the afternoon, she will take her to bank to draw cash, take her to pay the homeowners insurance. All the junk mail mom had been hoarding, my sister found a $25 gift card from PG&E for saving energy by not using her air conditioner too much last summer. Sis is taking mom to Wal-Mart (using the gift card) to get some sweat pants to wear around the house since she is always so cold, and I gave sis mom's medicine for later so I don't have to go back over. All in all a good day for everyone here.
Welcome to this thread. It has got to be terrible for your mother to treat you this way when you are helping her. May I suggest that you contact your local Area on Aging, or other such agencies to assist you with various aspects of your mom's health. I notice that you've written you help her, so does that mean your mother lives alone? Maybe if you could find some outside help, then you could take a break for yourself, also. Much Love & Light! Margeaux
Just a small clarification: I was talking about my husband.
Margeaux
I read your post about spotting the narcissists. I'm really happy for you that you put your foot down, and didn't change your plans that evening! I too am coming into the reality, that my sister, her youngest daughter, SIL and her youngest also are narcissists. They remind me of a dog chasing it's own tail!! HAAAAAH!
After my sister had called to give me an update about our brother and his discomfort about Christmas Day, she invited my husband and me to join her, the daughters, grandson and one of their husbands New Years Day to watch a game and some lunch.. We opted out. I wanted to take a walk on the beach w/my husband and feel new energies. So we did!! I didn't change my plan. We passed an outdoor restaurant, and saw some friends there. So we joined them for a toast during a beautiful sunset. It had beautiful colors of orange and violet, amidst some clouds. It was a great way to start 2013! Good vibes, I'm all about that! Thanks for the reminder, Much Love & Hugs! Margeaux
How are you?
I am so happy for you that finally a doctor seems to really be working in your favor with regards to your mom. Yes, just from your post when the eating is affected and it's evident from their weight, this is so telling. I remember that before we knew mom had ALZ, she was the one looking and taking care of her older sister. Mom never was the cook either. They both used to eat daily at a senior center they belonged to. But once my aunt was really more in decline w/mobility, most of the senior center activity came to an abrupt halt. This meant, mom was having to be more in charge of their eating plan at home. Well, mom who has always been the smaller and slender one, started to look very frail. I think this is also when she took a couple falls. So anyway, the things that are happening to your mother are really all those signs.
I know it's very recent, but have you noticed any change in her mood given the anti-depressant? I hope for your sake, and of course hers this starts to work positively.
I really admire that your family is pulling together on this front. Maybe your brother should have a talk with my siblings about teaching their kids something about responsibility! This is really great, that he wants his son to pay rent.
You and yours are totally in my thoughts! Hugs to you, Much Love, Margeaux
How are you and your wife doing?
I hope both of you are well.
Yes, I do agree with you that some men can be the fixers.
Some times in the past, I felt that if I was sharing some of my feelings especially about mom and her ALZ, I must admit that he didn't know mom for much time very well, before she was diagnosed. So if ever say I've mentioned I' sense a real decline, which I can see because I've known her all of my life, he deflect to something like....."Well, she looks good." Even though I realize his intentions are good, I was somewhat disappointed, because really what I wanted was someone to listen to me, and not respond with anything, other than some good old moral support. "The Art of LIstening." It's truly a special thing. Some people have it, and some people do not. But I really think there is some truth to what you have written about the distinction between men and women in this respect. Thanks , and Happy New Years to you and yours, Much Love, Margeaux
Some of us I think would like to ask for our husband's, mates advice about certain things. At least I do, especially about certain areas that my husband has more experience about. But definitely, my husband doesn't have that in the area of siblings, nor caregiving at all.
The other part about this, is that my husband many times gives unsolicited advice about matters that although he tries, doesn't have enough experience about either.
In my sister's case, she goes round and round w/her problems discussing them, and there's plenty of anger, many times. So one size does not fit all women either. Margeuax