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My husband’s dementia has progressed. He has good moments and bad moments, but mostly agitation and sadness now. He is in AL now but now required to go to MC. The MC at this facility looks awful. Everyone is in their wheelchair with their heads low and mouth open. It seems so depressing. My main question is this. My husband wants to die. How do I respond to this? He is so depressed and is ready to go. We do not have state assisted suicide here. He is just miserable and unfortunately is making my life a living hell. I love my husband so much, I’m just trying to make him happy but having no luck at all. His children live far away. He wants to go back to his hometown to die. I did take him back for 6 months to an AL there and I drove 4 hours each way every week to see him. I quit my job in order to be with him. It was suggested to move him back to where I live so my life would be easier. I moved him, he is required to go to MC now and he is so depressed, he tells me he wants to die. I don’t know how to emotionally handle this. My life has pretty much fallen apart and I know how miserable he is. I detest these MC facilities in the coast of SC. Is there anything I can do?

Move him to a better MC and get the doctor to prescribe antidepressants to address his depression. That's all you CAN do. Dementia is a no win situation for all involved. Jumping through hoops to make dh happy doesn't work in the long run, as you're finding out, because dementia progresses and ruins the quality of life. Get hospice on board when the time is right, and in the meanwhile, sympathize with DH as I did with my mother who "wanted to die" all the time. I would tell her "God isn't ready for you yet so let's make the best of today mom". Again, what else CAN you do?

Look into joining an in person support group in your area, getting out with friends, and not allowing YOUR life to fall apart in the process of dealing with your husband's condition. If you have faith, join a church and seek counsel from the clergy or look into therapy. Don't let grief consume you.

Best of luck with a difficult situation.
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My brother often said he "would rather be dead" or "wished he had died in the accident he had prior to diagnosis". I think that was reasonable. He often said "I hope I die before I lose all that makes me who I am". I think that is reasonable.
What is there to say to our loved one? Basically "I understand; I would feel the same. We just don't have that choice, so we have to get on with this day".
Don't negate his feelings. Allow him to mourn his losses.
For my brother--as it happens he got sepsis and DID die after 1 1/2 years and without further losses. I was very glad for him.

I would consult with hubby's MD to see if he can try a mild anti depressant. In the case of a friend in TX her mother, who disengaged and became non verbal, almost without reaction, she was put on mild cannabis. And while she still doesn't know her family she is content, smiling, eating.

Short of those things I simply don't have an answer. Dr. Laura says that "not everything can be fixed" and in the area of dementia she couldn't be more correct. Listen to hubby, let him know you mourn his losses with him. I would join FEN (50.00 membership); 866-654-9156 and www.finalexitnetwork.org. )
Right to die laws are progressing. It is good to stay informed.
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Sorry you are loosing your husband this way....I lost mine to Stage 4 liver cancer, after a year of surgery and chemo. He was suffering in extreme physical pain the last 10 days. My life fell apart and it was a brutal experience.

These horrible illnesses cannot be fixed or cured. You can only try to be supportive as possible. Easier said than done. Nothing you can do will make him happy.

All I can suggest is prepare yourself. You will need a job again afterward to survive. I don't know what I'd say when he talks wanting to die. Mine wanted to live so bad instead.
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I totally agree he needs meds if he isn't on any right now. Dementia robs people of their abilities to bring their minds to places of acceptance, contentment and peace so he needs help doing this.

It would be worthwhile to get friendly with the staff at the MC and to talk to the admins about using your husband as a "helper" so that he's not hanging out with those of less ability than him. Does the facility have any activities or events? Encourage him to go or go with him (and then exit before the event is over so he is distracted to avoid sadness).

I'm so sorry for these circumstances. May you receive peace in your heart. Please make your own self and health a priority and do lots of self-care!
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He wouldn't quality for assisted suicide anyway because he has dementia.

You can’t make him happy. No doubt dementia is way worse for them (until a certain point)… I’d be depressed, sad and angry about it too most likely.
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I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am. I'm sure this is agonizing for you and your husband.

Medication is all I can think of.

Please take care of yourself, I'm sure that is the last thing on your mind right now. But you need to try. 😞
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